Crossroad

At the crossroad No.xx of my life, my heart beats fast, my head refuse to keep up straight, my world is spinning, mainly coz I sent a bold email to a prof, about research position. *Worried* Please reply me soon.

i love my ex-colleagues at PharmARC

It is no wonder why i always feel that I can't seems to fit working here in sg. My ex-colleagues at PharmARC are simply too amazing! I recently wrote an email to one project leader, dr.arun for a reference letter for my graduate studies. i told him that my chance is low, as i dont meet the entry requirement (but i have a thesis supervisor - a different story)He was so willing to give it a try with me, and i must admit, i was a bit demanding, and he didnt mind my nonsense, and put in all the effort to guide me . He said to me, " I am not doing you a favour, but guiding you in your career." And, that's not all, the reference letter 'bothered' the whole entire team, they wanted to make it as convincing as possible. Thanks dr. maltesh, anjan, abhijeet, and entire epi and ci team, not only for the letter,but also for always keeping in touch with me, showing care, and concern, asking how's life, and saying that you all miss me. Definately miss the stall at the corner of the road (oh no! I forgot what are those food called!) I don't think they knew my blog exist (coz i never tell them) but this is to show how warm, and friendly Indians can be. I love india. It's an amazing country with amazing people.

On Patience and Religion

My patience has been tested quite a bit recently. I am glad that i am constantly tested, and stretched. Today, I was moving 2 boxes of stuff ( 1 extremely heavy) and 2 small hand begs by myself. I carried all those from my room to the front of the lift , just to realized that the lift was not working. Yes, i panicked (according to CY) and called my housemate who was getting a cab from his place. Then after awhile, i thought, oh well just move all these stuff back and do it another day. And i moved all back into my room, and came out to see that the lift is working again. And so, i went in and carried them out again. i never curse or scold. At last,I managed to move those stuff to my new house, especially thanks to CY who came to the rescue with a cab. Yes, I managed it. To me it was a small achievement. Patience. :)

I also went to tutor some chrocically-ill kids at a club,just for 1.5 hours. Again, patience is required, as the kids are slow but smart. They are so young, yet are suffering.. from diseases that prevent them from going to school everyday like normal kids.The biggest lesson i got from them is that, life goes on and the kid i was tutoring was so happy and playful (and lazy). He seemed to have no worries, and proud to tell me that he want to grow up to be a professor.

After tutoring, i went to Kino bookstore at Orchard. FOr the first time i went to the religion section. I bought 3 books. Shall continue next post. Extremely tired today.

17th April 2007

Finally, this morning, i told my aunt about moving out. It took me 2 days of courage, well more than 2 days actually...months. Some people asked, why is it so difficult to tell and Why do i need courage? Because i know my aunt and her daughter need me more than i need my housemates or my housemates need me. I need the courage to be selfish. Though i am not very comfortable living with a family, and yearn for space of my own, i know that i have been the listening ears of my aunt. She talk,and talk and talk to me when i return home in the evening and in the morning, but i never complain. She's lonely, her little daughter too. Her husband work so late into the night, something i began to hate, feeling embarassed too because i was once doing the same. Where is Work and Life balance!??! It's simply too difficult in here. This is one lesson i learnt from my experience in India and living with my aunt's family. I guess i have been extremely lucky and blessed, because all my life, i get to see and learn things by experience, and i also get the chance to change it for good. However, i also clearly bear in mind that the same will not be true forever, I do not always will get the precious second chance. I can see that my aunt was extremely sad when i told her the news. Now she wants me to return to her place and stay for weekends. Wonder if moving out is the best decision.


On a happier note: Meet the Robinson is extremely good! I watched it in 3-D, it's even TOP!

And, I am now a UN Online Volunteer! I just got an 'assignment' with http://www.ouaganet.com/index.php

Long Long Time

..since i last posted an entry. Well well, a few updates here in short. Since started working, i always go home feeling exhausted though i dont think i do a lot of work. Many know that i do not like my current job, but i have very good colleagues. However, currently i do not plan to quit the job. Lazy.. finding for a job is such a trouble. And i need to be peaceful for awhile. Too much of ups and downs and uncertainties, making my brain working too hard.

One incident i need to highlight here is that i fell down on one Saturday and went into the 'Walk-in' A&E . Why 'Walk in' ? Because my 'accident' was not serious, but i didnt excatly walked in, i was wheeled in on a wheel chair. I sprained my ankle and my foot was swollen till today, after 2 weeks, 2 doctors and 1 x-ray. I told my mom about the accident, and oh well (i wasn't surprise) she told all my relatives. When i text my cousin on mobile phone, he replied " I heard that you injured your leg..." Mom is amazing news reporter. Wahahaha

One more news is that i found a house.. to rent with my friends. So we will move in next weekend or so. On the 21st level. My room is quite small, but small room can be very cosy, which i like. I think life will be so cool and interesting with my new housemates. The landlord is a very weird lady. She was so nice and warm at one moment and suddenly changed into one very stubborn person. Scary. One problem i found today is that the MRT station nearest to that house is HUGEEEEE . It's underground. I was LOST. I was there for about 10 minutes because i cant find the correct exit! The rent is quite expensive, but it's the cheapest we can find given the location and the condition of the house. My friends in India will probably get shock if they know that the rent is about Rs16000 per month ( More than my salary at my last company in india)

I have to go now. TGIF!