The people that spice up my life..AIESECers

'AIESEC Amazing Race and Steamboat & BBQ dinner!

You know you are doing too much @ things when:

1 - You go more to conferences, lectures, trainings, seminars, meetings etc than to real parties.
2 - Listen to the music that your friends never heard of.
3 - You know how to dance that music.
4 - At college, when you have to do group work, you insist to openpostulation to the OC.
5 - You call your mom and dad stakeholders.
6 - You speak more english than your mother language.
7 - You never give opinions, but offer inputs.
8 - You don't accept gifts because they "don't follow branding guidelines".
9 - When you first think in the Holy Trinity, you think of @XP, Culture ofExcellence and Branding.
10 - Your boyfriend or girlfriend is used to hear "ILY" instead of "I LoveYou".
11 - All your friends are tired of saying "no, I don't want to bring atrainee to my company".
12 - Before kissing someone, you first wonder how many points she/he isworth, not if you like her/him.
13 - You got a small lecture ready for any time when anyone asks "what isAIESEC?"
14 - You make a PowerPoint presentation to convince your dad to give youmore money.
15 - Ask to your friends "feedbacks" on how your haircut looks like.
16 - Answer your home phone like that: "[your name], AIESEC, good morning"
17 - Call your parents saying "Hi, here is [your name] from AIESEC".
18 - When you have doubts in a school subject, you ask for the help of a mentor.
19 - In a wedding, you start to punch the table and shout "this is table numberone, where is table number two?"
20 - Your MSN nickname is something like "John LCVP ER @PA BAZI People is cool- "I hate aiesec.net"
21 - 60% of your MSN friends have similar nicknames.
22 - Call "Alumnis" old school friends.
23 - Call old school friends gatherings as a "conference".
24 - Insist to make an output of that "conference"?for a planning of the futuregatherings.
25 - In a party, talking to someone is "show interest". Kissing is "matched".Having sex is "realized". Having sex again is "re-raised".
26 - If you decide to not go to class, it's a decision based on the creditpolicy.
27 - It's up to you to get this list longer...


Muhahahaha...funny! i have to admit, i dun quite get the joke for some sentences, but overall, it is funny and true to some extend...Hehee..some jokes to relax with and now i can get back to my final sprint for the 2 papers later.. i can do it!

Pharmacology Test + 3 other '-logy' Tests

Humm..In a few hours time, i'll be having my pharmacology test..Gee..And i havent finish studying. Just here for a quick write up. I can't quite remember what i studied, how to, when i only have 2 weeks after IC to catch up with the lessons i missed and study for the 4 tests..They are all one after another( with 2 being on the same day) How to remember??!?!The facts are all mixed up in my brain..I wonder how bad my results will be this semester. I am having this bad feeling again. Oh No. Humm..with these exams and memorizing going on, i am having future career crisis...really, i dun wanna go on my life memorizing facts , reading scientific journals , and rushing reports and publising papers. I am gonna meet up with Susan. I need to have a good chat with her.

I am always happier doing aiesec work. ( ah contradicting myself with my previous post?Well, no matter what aiesec still the best!) Wish to work for AIESEC my whole life!!!hahaha..not possible yah. I have a lot other responsibilities in life but AIESEC is love! I guess IC did change me alot, especially about how i see AIESEC.

Oh this supposed to be a quick one so, wookie back to the books...

Missing You

Have you ever bothered to realize how much you mean to me?I care so much for you inside and miss you so deeply.My mind is always curious aboutthe way things might have been.As days go by and time goes by,I look back once again.All the time I held you in my arms,I had the whole world right there.There you were, comforting me withall of your charms.Every little kiss from youwas like a dream come true.This love that I have inside my heart,it all belonged to you!It's funny, all those little thingsI never thought I'd miss,Like all those conversations we had,or the first time we kissed.I guess that what I'm trying to say,is I miss and love you more each day!It hurts me not to see you,or not to know if you're ok.I want you to understandthat I loved you from the start.And I want you to know,no matter how many mileswe may be apart,you'll always hold a special placein my heart.

So Very Far Away

You're so very far away
And I need you
Every Day...
Even tho we're far apart...
I'll keep your memory
in my heart
I work and work
in every way...
Filling the void in every day
Fleeting Thoughts of YOU
Make me wonder
"What to Do"
The thoughts of you, make me smile...
And help me go
the extra mile...
I have a choice to stick or go
And yet in my heart
I already know...
I'll sit and wait and hope and pray...
And never give up
on that day...
When "You and I" will be together...
Every Day and Forever.........

Joynheart

My Sisters

My sisters are the queens of my heart. >_< . Love them so So Much!! I was a little stressed over the continuos tests coming up. Well, one of the reasons why i was so stressed was i felt that i have not been working hard enough..wasting a lot of time on..oh i don't know what. And yeap, my sisters are always here to save my day!! Even though we are so so far apart..Muacks love you girls..Missing Home..Missing the times when we used to fool around at home..Going out to erm God knows where w/o Mom's permission..Gagaga...

My sister told me this : Work hard for 2 weeks and enjoy live for 20 years..
I know what she meant, If i study hard and be patient for this 2 weeks, and if i get good results, life will be great on my side for the rest of my life. Sorry Sis,HUm..but I really hope it is not true..

Yikesss..

What is Wrong with this BLOG!?!??! The pictures that i upload just can't seems to appear..Hummm

Meaningful..Sweeet

Wish For You

A setting sun that paints a tie-dyed sky

A feather bed, an ancient lullaby

A kiss good night from one whose love is true

That's the kind of day i wish for you

A field of flowers dancing in the spring

A little creek, a tree, an old rope swing

Cotton candy clouds against the blue

That's the kind of day i wish for you

First love with all its storm

Raging like fire within

Tossing your heart to chance

You swear the dance will never end

But then it does and someone says goodbye

And after all those empty nights you cried

The morning that you wake up good as new

That's the kind of day i wish for you

The faith of knowing deep inside your heart

That heaven holds more than just some stars

Someone's up there watching over you

That'sA setting sun that paints a tie-dyed sky

A feather bed, an ancient lullaby

A kiss good night from one whose love is true

That's the kind of day i wish for you

.......From the bottom of my heart

Nature and Peace.. inseparable
Need them close to my heart

I made a final conclusion..

MC of AIESEC in Singapore is not for me. Will never want to continue next year. It is making me demotivated and disappointed. It is just so hard for me to speak to them. I just felt that I as LCP can't make the decision for my LC's benefit. And what is the purpose of putting LCP in MC. When i suggest we do project on LC basis, some MC object coz they want to do it nationally, so we can share resource.I do agree but So when will my LC be dependent enough to raise our own traineeship and do our core work? Travelling and depending on other LC are demotivating members. Mainly coz they have to arrange for a common time for meeeting and travel all the way and waste so much time on planning. It is much easier to plan and meet when we are in the same LC. National and TF based, And what are the MC doing when it comes to LC activities? The LCP and the EBs are the ones doing everything coz the members are not empowered enough. The MCs said I came to observe and not intend to help. So EBs and LCPs work like mad and the MCs make decision. I am just too tired to continue on.
Guess i might be wrong, but well, this is really demotivating me. When i thought i have the courage to help my LC, the MC think the other way. There is no room of learning for me in AIESEC. All i have been doing is to help the MCs and attend all the long, ineffective meetings with the MCs. And oh yea, they say LCPs are MC .

Freaking Long and tiring day..

Woke up at 3, read some notes and when back to sleep at about 530. Woke up again at 9 to read through my practical.And then, started my freaking long and tiring day. 12 to 6pm in the laboratory! Bad tutor, Headache. Total waste of time. Then straight away to ADTF meeting at Jurong East Library until 11pm. Then, had to take MRT, then the bus, then walk to reach my room at 1145. Now have to study and tomorrow have to wake up at 7 for CSR Forum. Then MC meeting. Ah yet another MC meeting. oh..anything but MC meeting.

Well, no matter how busy i am, I have to be solution oriented. Trust i can do it, and I will get there. After all, Christmas is just a blink away...

Stressed..

Today is a super stressful day. Stress is just in the mind! I have to be solution-oriented.. So taking a break right now to blog. Talked to my ex-MCP about PBox for about an hour over the phone. It was long, but was informative. At least now i can grab the idea better. We are so lacking behind, when everyone have already done with so many with Pboxes, we are just about to start. I am determined to start it this term! I felt so stress coz i will be teaching people about something i myself is not familiar about coupled with the school work and aiesec reports!!??! Met up with the officers from OSA. They gave me a whole list of documents they want us to submit. HUM. And i asked about AIESEC office. The answer is NO, we don't have any rooms. Oh..have they checked? Can't they be more supportive, to at least suggest any other ways i can look into? Have been pushed from one office to one office and to one office...Haiz..Well, have to depend on ourselves now. My greatest wish in this term is to secure an aiesec office for AIESEC in NUS! Can't give UP!! Will be having EB meeting tomorrow. This maybe the last time we are meeting up before the mid-term craze.

NUS hot to go, HOTTOGO..

*Solution*Solution*Solution*

Your Birthdate: October 16

Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone.

You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent.

You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate.

You are introspective and a little stubborn.

Because of this, it may not be easy for you to maintain permanent relationships, but you probably will as you are very much into home and family.

This birth day inclines to interests in the technical, the scientific, and to the religious or the unknown realm of spiritual explorations.

The date gives you a tendency to seek unusual approaches and makes your style seem a little different and unique to those around you.

Your intuition is aided by the day of your birth, but most of your actions are bedded in logic, responsibility, and the rational approach.

You may be emotional, but have a hard time expressing these emotions. Because of this, there may be some difficulty in giving or receiving affection.

Oh Gosh, it is so true..........

ARGH!

Did i just spoilt my own chance? Sometimes, silence is GOLDEN! Shoot myself..

Faith..

"You can question the ways of getting somewhere or question your apporach but never lose faith because if you believe in what you are doing , that is the strongest determination of your future success. Being able to do something is one thing but passion will lead the way "

My major barriers are always my self-confidence, faith and believe. I have always been asking people Why, How and SHOULD I? I need to stand up. Really stand on my own feet and say yes i can do what i want!

Thanks for the inspiration!

Raining...

Raining, Thunder and lightning outside. My heart felt so empty and lonely. Rainy days usually make me gloomy and sad..wish i have my friends or friend here with me right here right now. But everyone is just too busy studying. I am supposed to. Why, I just wanna do aiesec work after IC? Will AIESEC be able to provide me with what good results can? If i were to stay in Singapore, how can my so so results survive the HR managers or Humm in my case probably principal investigators? Really hope i can go for a traineeship, but oh well, i have to deal with the bond issue first. or International MC? humm wonder what my mom will think. She will be so upsad. And i definately dont want her to be.

The future continue to be gloomy as for now..

Hot Sunny Sunday..and i need enlightenment.

Oooo..it's a hot sunny Sunday. And i am stuck in my room doing econs. Regret taking this module. Spending so much time in it. Nevertheless it prepare me for something really different from my major. Studies. When is this gonna end? 1 more year? or 1.5? I am not sure. I will definately work hard for the best. Yea, i will.

I had a dream yesterday night. Oh, a wonderful one. I guess i must be so desperate for what i wanted that i even dreamt about it. Have you ever wanted something so badly and yet you know it is not possible? Is it just because I am not good enough to get it? Or maybe it is possible but just a problem coz i do not have self confidence? But, what if it involve the decision of others as well? No matter how hard and how much confidence i have, it is also dependent on others' decision. Humm..need enlightenment.

Ruwan, Aiyo Amzad, mua, Huifun and ShahrOn
Ruwan, amzad and I

MOre and More IC pictures COming UP!!

Can't get over IC two thousand and five

6 days after IC. I am still living in the 'IC mood'. Refuse to get back to reality. IC 2005 had given me an experience i will never forget for the rest of my life. Firstly, it was held in INDIA, incredible India it is. The situation in India is totally opposite from what you can see in Singapore or even Malaysia. The children were dirty and barefooted. They were selling and working. Poor. My heart sunk. Some families stay in tents at the roadside. Traffic were messy. I felf sorry for the children. I felt so fortunate and blessed again. I really hope they have the chance to be educated and one day change the fate of their families. So much i want to help but so little i can do now. I do hope i will have the chance to make a difference, especially in AIESEC, i know i can. 2 weeks in India yet we Didn't have much time to travel around. But since we were in Agra, the monument city of Taj Mahal, at least we got to visit one of the 7 (or izzit8) wonders of the world. The sight of Taj Mahal was magnificent! The Taj looks so fake yet so incredibly real. We went in a group so we 'hired' a tour guide, which was good coz at least we got to know a lot of history and facts about Taj Mahal.

IC two thousand and five!! The Congress itself..was remarkable. What can i say? IC really showed me what is diversity and made me realized how far behind my LC and country is right now. That was not all. Personally i realized that I am not putting enough effort to be a good leader or a change agent that i thought i was. I used to think that i sacrifice enough for my LC and the answer is NO! Compare to the people i met in IC, my passion and motivation for AIESEC is minimal. I learnt a lot from many AIESECers in IC and was so eager to implement in my LC. However, i still have some doubt in myself. I need strength. Maybe it is time to find myself a mentor? IC was also so special and powerful to me because i have the chance to be part of the congress that develop the AIESEC 2010. Can't wait to be at IC 2010! Also having to understand and be in the process of revising the new AIESEC identity, it brought me even closer to AIESEC. Truthfully speaking, before i went to IC, i really doubt my invovlvement in AIESEC. I lost the reasons why i am in this organization. I thought AIESEC is just a responsibility and not my passion. However, in IC, i realized that AIESEC had provided me a platform to know all these special individuals i met in IC.And also the AIESEC friends i know in Singapore who are now my closest friends. AIESEC had given me the chance to be standing in front of a crowd and addressing to them. AIESEC had given me the courage to talk to many people I won't dare to talk to. And AIESEC definately have more opportunities for me in the future if i choose to continue believing in AIESEC. After IC, i really wish i can work full time for AIESEC. Crazy? And i do hope that i can go for a Life Science traineeship after graduation.

Post-IC. Have lots of school work to catch up. Totally lost when it comes to school work. In addition, i have to catch up with AIESEC work as well. Part-Time student, Part- Time AIESECer. And now with still so much work to do, i am blogging. Humm..Time Management! I seriously need to do that now. But IC was so meaningful and impactful that i refuse to let the hype away. I almost wanted to give up on going to IC and AIESEC. However, Thanks to all my very supportive AIESECer friends, i made it to IC . I owe them lotz. Oh, one more thing, post-IC, i am crazy over baila baila comigo, le le, and spanish songs..Sudden urge to learn Spanish...
Ah..For now, just get my school work done first..

Missing YOU from IC, hope to see You again...

Hasta La Vista

Me, Peter and Dei 

Friendship Last Forever... 

IC 2005, in the city of the Great Taj Mahal...The Lifetime Experience 

Lionel Richie - Long Long Way To Go Lyrics

You held my hand and then you slipped away
And I may never see your face again
So tell me how to fill the emptiness inside
Without love, what is life? And anyone who knew us
both can see We always were the better part of me
I never wanted to be this free And all this pain, when does it
go away?

Then everytime I turn around And you're nowhere to be found I know

I gotta long long way to go Before I can say
goodbye to you Oh, I gotta long long way I know
Before I can say goodbye To all I ever knew, to you To you

From memory there is no hiding place Turn on the TV and I see
you there
In every crowd there's always someone with your face
Everywhere, trying not to care

Then everytime I turn around And you're nowhere to be found I know

I gotta long long way to go Before I can say
goodbye to you Oh, I gotta long long way I know
Before I can say goodbye To all I ever knew

To you I wish you everything And all the best that life can bring
I only hope you think of me sometimes Oh, and even though I fell the pain
I know that you will love again The time will come and you'll move on

I gotta long long way to go Before I can say
goodbye to you Oh, I gotta long long way I know
Gotta long way to go Before I can say goodbye
Before I can say goodbye To all I ever knew
To all I ever knew I gotta long way to go
Before I say Say goodbye, say goodbye
But I wish you the best girl Oh and all of the rest to you

This song always take my heart away...

My 2nd Blog

Ah, me. This is my 2nd blog. I started my first blog some time ago and i stopped blogging for quite some time because i was too busy with school and aiesec, and..the unthinkable *_* happened. I forgot my userid and password. What are my brain cells for? Haha, anyways i seriously need to start a new blog for i now think i should not be the old me who will be upset over something for sometime and not think about solution to it! There is no use to be upset over spilt milk. What we really need to do and consider whenever we are sad is to "Prioritize things in your life" My best friend shared this meaningful thoughts with me, she learnt from her aunt. Life is a Learning Network. You learn from someone, someone learn from someone else, the network goes on...